Fathers Day Mush

The day I told Rob I was pregnant with our first child I was overwhelmed and scared.  We had been together nearly three years and engaged six months but I had a plan, babies came later.

It is not that Taylor was not planned she just came a year ahead of schedule.

My life was crazy.

I was working 50 hours a week, working on my MBA and planning my wedding.  My life was like a revolving door.  I was out of the house by 5:00 in the morning and between the gym, work and school I was gone until 10:00 at night.

It was not bad, it was nonstop, but not bad.  I knew it was temporary.

Then things changed.

I was not feeling well.  I could not pinpoint what was wrong, I just felt bad.  I remember sitting at my desk nesting my head in my arms wondering how I would make it through the day.  I was so tired. 

Then the nagging feeling came.  What if I was pregnant? I was on the pill.  I always took it, but what if?  I had switched they type of pill I was on, would that matter?

I managed to brush the feeling off.  Then one morning I was at the gym before work and I had nothing in me, I could not make myself do my workout.  The nagging feeling came back.  On the way to work I stopped and bought a pregnancy test.  I thought I was being crazy, I thought I would take the test just to ease my mind.

I went into ladies room at work, knowing I was not pregnant, I peed on the stick.  I lifted the stick to eye my eyes.  No three minute wait, there I was in the bathroom at work and I was pregnant.

I was pregnant.

When I told Rob I was sobbing.  I wanted to be a mom but not yet.  I wanted to plan it, I wanted to be prepared, I wanted to be married not engaged.

I wanted to be in charge. 

I was sobbing but Rob was calm, he held me and asked why I was crying, he told me it would work out and that he would take care of us.

It has worked out and looking at my life now, I am glad it happened the way it did.

Over the past five years a lot has changed.  I moved, became a stay at home mom, finished my masters, had two kids. 

We created a new life,  a good life.


Life does not always go as planned, we don't always agree, sometimes it is hard.  We are very different people, but it works.

I love to watch Rob with our kids.  He will do anything to be a good dad and to give our kids the kind of father he never had.  The kind of life he did not have.

There is no one else I would want to do this with.

Happy Fathers Day to my husband and all the good dads out there.

Love Always,

elena