I have spent a great deal of time organizing my life so that I am in charge. I don't leave things open to chance, I plan an manage everything.
It works for me.
I broke my foot. I broke it, I chipped it and I separated it. All the Doctor and the specialist managed to say is, "It's not good".
I had surgery. They pinned, wired and sewed it back together.
I spent three nights in the hospital and now I am home.
And I am useless.
Sitting in the hospital unable to do anything, was like boot camp for the next eight weeks. I need to except the help and let go.
I don't get to be in charge of everything.
I am lucky to have friends and family who will keep my life and my family afloat. They will drop what they are doing and go out of there way to make sure that we are more then okay.
I need to let go of my need to handle it all, manage everything, and never need help.
I am going to suck it up and let them help.
elena
*in case you missed the story about how I broke my foot you can read about it here.
I am so sorry to read about your foot. Having been through a couple of surgeries in the not-too-distant past, I understand the process of letting go, of realizing that you don't actually control the one thing that you thought you did: your body. Good for you for accepting this lesson with grace. You will heal faster if you accept the process (and the help). I have seen this first-hand. Best wishes for a speedy recovery!
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry! This has got to be so difficult!
ReplyDeleteYep. I learned the same lesson after Lily's c-section.
ReplyDeleteP.S., it was liberating once I realized that the world goes on without my management ;-)
Oh Elena, I'm so sorry. SUCKS!
ReplyDeletei will step it up in a BIG WAY and try to keep things as normal as possible
ReplyDeleteOh my goodness...
ReplyDeleteFirst, lots and lots of hugs. I know how scary that feeling is and I'm glad that your sweet baby is okay.
I tend to be a "I do it myselfer." I feel like a frustrated toddler half the time, like the entire world should stop while it waits for me to perfect my skills. And then, in some form or another, my body reminds me that it doesn't always work that way.
Hoping your down time leads to more good revelations and you have a speedy recovery!
It's so hard as a mother to let someone else take care of US. Release that and let your body heal.
ReplyDeleteAmy @ A Little Nosh
Oh my gosh you poor thing!!! I just read your story of how it happened...that must have been so scary and awful. You are an amazing mom. And I am so sorry that you've had such a brutal week!
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