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Wednesday, March 16, 2011

lost in thought

Today would have been my father's birthday.  He has been dead for nine years.

It took him dying for me to admit to myself that I missed having a relationship with him.  The last thing he said to me was "Lets keep in better touch."

His number was on my coffee table when he died. 

My dad meant well but he made poor choices and he made it hard for his children to have a relationship with him.  Between the poor choices I remember good things.  More then him not seeing me get married I wish I could see him read to my kids.

I normally don't miss him, I spent a lot of my life learning how not to miss him, but today for some reason I let him in. 

I will credit most of who I am on my mother, but if nothing else I will say that my dad helped me to pick a spouse that will never have to say, "lets keep in better touch" to our kids.  Rob is constant and loyal, he is far from perfect but he tries everyday to be a better man and father.


Today, on what would have been my father's birthday I am thankful for my kids father.

Love always,

Elena

11 comments:

  1. I think your kids have a great father, too!

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  2. Aw geez, now I'm crying again. We all love Rob!

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  3. Wow, Elena! This really hit home with me. As you know, my father was similarly out of touch with me and my siblings, too. I agree that my father also taught me about what kind of father to choose for my son. Rob is such an awesome dad and you're an awesome mom! Thanks for sharing!

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  4. What a touching and real post. It sounds like your husband is an awesome, awesome man. Sending lots of love today.

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  5. Hi there,
    Glad to find you & your blog.;-) you need to read EMZ's blog as she is a heel LOVER! and a really good racer, and really, really funny writer: if i can't convince you at least i'll confuse you is her title, but her link has 'pita' in it.

    Salud!

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  6. I will try to find the EMZ blog. Glad to have you here.

    Elena

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  7. Yep, tears again. Such a touching post, Elena. We do all love Rob, and love that you have him to count on and love and love you right back.

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  8. Great post. Thanks for sharing it with us. Elena, you are a truly remarkable person. The world is a better place because of who are. Your family is truly blessed.

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  9. This post hit my heart. Almost the same sentiments...except I dont even remember my fathers b-day (good for you). We can create our futures...I live everyday gratefull that I have a husband who was not my father. That is TRUE LOVE and it begins when we make better decisions than those of our past. Good to think on it...better to love what you have and move past it too!!

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  10. Thank you all so much for the comments, I was hesitant if I was going to publish the post after I wrote it. I am glad I decided to share.

    Marlene, my birthday is the day after my dads so it is easy to remember, I had no idea when father's day was until I had children.

    e

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